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What is anger?

How to describe?

How to know what it is?

Anger is...

A human emotion.

Powerful.

Destructive.

Maddening.

Hatred.

Loathing.

Fire.

It's color is red.

It burns inside us all,

whether some admit it or deny it.

Anger drives some to killing others.

Some are driven to destroying their own lives.

Anger can lead others to torturing.

Anger is..not to be taken lightly..

What is calm?

It is...

one of many human emotions.

How to describe calm..?

It's color is green.

Sense of silence yet..

Not quiet at the same time.

Feeling of peace.

Feeling of security.

What is calm?

Calm is many things in one.

A quiet meadows..

A still lake..

The soft wind gently caressing the leaves..

A sense of complete relaxation..

A snowflake falling slowly to the ground..

Calm is...wonderful to experience.

Broken,

beaten,

stomped upon,

lashed at,

cut at,

thrown and knocked senseless..

I deserve every bit of these..

Her heart will break,

mine already has..

I deserve every ounce of hatred that can be cast upon my soul...

Tear me up,

burn me alive,

kill me slowly,

make me scream in total pain...

I am deserving every ounce of this pain..

Let me cry,

I'll let you cry too...

No..I do not enjoy hurting others...even if the one who will be hurt isn't human...

I deserve...nothing but pain...hate...& to suffer for all eternity....

My beautiful lovely,

It saddens me to say this.

It's not easy,

it breaks my heart,

tears my soul,

but for your own good,

I have to let you go...

Though you are not human,

& cannot speak,

you are a dear friend.

I can no longer be with you,

simply because I cannot afford to keep you..

You will be in good care rest assured my love...



-This is dedicated to Copper....she is a 22 or 23 year old mare. It hurts to have to give her up...but I cannot afford to keep up...

To belong with them,

how to describe?

It feels...

happy,

joyous,

wonderful,

understanding,

compassion,

love for one another,

support when weakened,

a family held up.



These are my feelings,

feelings I will have forever.

Nothing will change this,

I've tears as I type this.

But...they are not of sadness,

no far from it..

They are tears of happiness.



If you have someone you care dearly about....then tell them so. Let them know you care so deeply for them. To feel pain when they are in pain...would you not try to ease this? Be it family, friend, whatever. Tell them you care, let them know.

She rejoices,

happy as can be.

Happy with these choices,

so happy she can barely see.



Now she will focus,

and be all she can be.

Her enthusiasm is her driving force,

and she sings.



For them,

no one else.

Only for them,

away all her pain melts.

She turns into a raven,

to attempt escape,

to get far away.

It's no use though,

something chains her down.

She longs for the company of familiars,

instead she is thrust in with those unfamiliar.

She crawls deep inside,

to hold back the terror,

and the pure sadness.

How will she escape?

She longs so much to be with familiars....

Burn me alive,

burn me to hell.

I rebel against you,

never moving.

Never speaking,

keeping my distance of you.

All I see are flames.

Burn me,

hate me,

kill me.

Nothing you do will change me.

I only see flames,

flames of my own fury.

Flames that engulf me,

flames that hurt me,

burning me,

condemning me to the deepest depths of hell.

Still I do not give in,

I am separated from those I care for.

All I see is them,

I will endure anything that is thrown at me.

They are my reason to hold on,

to fight for life,

to hold onto hope,

they are my reasons to live.

You may have snatched me,

but I'll find my way back to them.

So burn me all you want.

The tears fall as she remembers,

once of laughter with those she loved,

once of pure friendship.

Now she cries,

unable to see them,

as she miserably walks to her new home.

She awaits rescue from this nightmare.



It has been a very long time,

since she last saw them.

She longs dearly to see them again,

she longs their company,

and the fact that they are familiars.

She despairs knowing she must wait,

will she be rescued?

Or be trapped in the nightmare?